I'm in your corner, kiddo. Hang in there.

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"I'm not in denial, but even if I were, I wouldn't admit it."

Beautiful.

If you rarely do art "for yourself", it just makes me wonder - isn't drawing "for yourself" the reason you, just as just about all of us artists, started drawing? Drawing simply for the fun of it, not to really achieve much anything, just for yourself. If so... I think you should find time to "draw for yourself", somehow. No matter what happens, art shouldn't be only job/income/whatever, it should most certainly be fun. If only because of the fact that we draw because it's fun.

But hang in there. Life may seem to be impossible every now and then, but you will manage. I'm sure of it.

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Nah, don't worry... I'm the very definition of 'duh'.

I was two when I started drawing, so I can't tell you what I was feeling when I first picked up a crayon and started to doodle stick figures. You have to understand tho, I do not generally talk about me. I'm a storyteller, I tell stories for people to enjoy with my art. I like to take people through little adventures I've cooked up in my mind, and draw things that people would like to collect or put on their walls. Doing emo stuff like this usually is not what I want to put into the world. There is enough angst in it already.

For me to do art about me or about my feelings is exceedingly rare because I generally do not take up my 'brush' to talk about myself, and if I do, I don't normally share it. Most of the time, its too personal.

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~ Purrs
ShdowsMyst
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this is very nice, a good one for follow up would probly be the girl standing up dropping the teddy, and getting ready to attack the shadows. i'm guessing that the lil girl is supposed to be you, and the shadows your depresion, but what i'd like to know is what the teddy bear stands for? they can generally be seen as representing a childs innocence, but since this one's eye's are sewn shut it gives a slightly diffrent vibe, maybe lost innocence? and since the girls eye's are hidden behind her bangs, it gives her a ence of torment, to me anyway.

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dance as if no one were watching,
sing as if no one were listening,
and live each day as if it were your last.
~Irish proverb
always remember when travling the universe, don't panic, and the answer is always 42

I understand. I'm not asking you to tell your feelings; they're yours and none of my business.

Most certainly there is enough angst in the world, I agree. And each to one's own; I know my way of doing things ain't the only one. What I was suggesting is that just what I said: sometime, take the time to just *draw*, just for the fun of it, with no idea or backthoughs or anything, whatsoever. At least I(and I know quite a few others) find it very relaxing, and it helps me keep my thoughs straight. Just listen to some good music, put the pen in the paper and find out what comes out of it. You might be surprised.

"Try to cheer up", I suppose is what I'm saying here, just in a different way. I know this might sound odd. Heck, I'd be weirded if some random person came and offered advice off the 'net.

Still, it's a beautiful picture nonetheless.

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Nah, don't worry... I'm the very definition of 'duh'.

In my experience/opinion, drawing works better than meds. Why supress what you can show? If not to everyone, to yourself.

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Lawful Evil; Because we will have order, even if it kills you.
My megalomania is beginning to hurt the people I... tolerate.
"... Did you know when you open your mouth, strange sounds come out?"

The shadows are my problems, the child is the vulnerable inner-self and the stuffed animal represents the 'good' that I have to comfort myself with. The sewn up eyes is representative of it not being perfect either. The idea is 'closing in'. Thats how depression feels to me. Like I'm being shut in, suffocated, plunged into darkness.

When you can't see the eyes, its often representative if you can't see into the soul. Hiding the truth, or lacking spirit. In this case its more the latter.

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~ Purrs
ShdowsMyst
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Ah. you refer to what I call doodling or sketching. Most of the time that serves as practice for whatever I happen to be obsessed with at the moment. Eyes, hands, faces, hawt bishies.. depends on my mood really. I just let the pencil take it its course and see what comes out. Although, its more like meditation to me, and it rarely involves personal subject matter.

This piece is... well different from what I normally do. I'm not sure if I like it, but its there and it says something.

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~ Purrs
ShdowsMyst
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is very deep, hope something sides the meds helps you to feel better soon, i often find your work very inspiring, heh, i even went so far as to start working on my own comic couse your comics motivated me.

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dance as if no one were watching,
sing as if no one were listening,
and live each day as if it were your last.
~Irish proverb
always remember when travling the universe, don't panic, and the answer is always 42